its been a few shitty weeks and i want to change things and for the shit to start turning into something good but that is not happening at all.
At least work keeps me busy so I don’t really have to think about how bad everything else is.
no one cares, i haven’t felt this bad since h.s. I need to get out of this funk but don’t know how. I feel like im slipping and I can’t recover.
I just need something good to happen.
random thought on a monday night… i am truly afraid of never meeting “the one” i know everyone says stop thinking about it and stuff will happen, well i feel like that doesn’t work. i don’t know i am ready for the one just yet but can i have some fun before i do?? or can i just meet him already……. sorry this is just a random thought………….my life is boring!
I give up. I have tried multiple times. I don’t know what else to do. I am done trying. I thought I was a friend but obviously I can be pushed aside. I am really hurting emotionally and physically and I just don’t know anymore. If you want me in your life then you make the effort.
- I am physically unable to answer (actually working at work, or had real life obligations)
- I thought I hit send but I really didn’t
- Tumblr is stupid and did not notify me, I actually had no clue you messaged me
- I assumed you wanted the conversation to end at that so I did not reply so you would not get pissed off
What did not happen:
- I ignored you
Basically they are all from me freaking out…………. : ) Love you!